Wonderful World Of Pinners

I was perusing Pinterest as I laid down for bed last night and stumbled upon this. 

It made me think of this past year, and how many things have happened. 

In the past few weeks especially, I've had several people approach me and ask what I do. 

I don't think. 

That's my big secret. 

I haven't let myself feel anything. I haven't let myself think about the people who have died, 

the loves that have been lost, the disappointments and failures. 

I just haven't processed. 

I'm smiling because I haven't really taken in the greatness of everything. 

Yesterday, I saw a boy that looked like Pete. My heart just crumbled. 

He was about 8, which is 3 years older than Pete will ever reach. 

I was thinking.... Holy crap. Just the experiences missed out on... then I thought about myself (not entirely selfish as it sounds.. ) 

I'm 21. 

I've loved. 

I've lost. 

I've learned. 

I've climbed mountains, 

swam with sharks, 

I've been hit by a car. 

I've run miles

I've graduated high school. 

I've nearly graduated college.

I've rented an apartment,

owned a cat, 

been to a party, 

had experiences that have shaken my faith

and those that have deepened it. 

I just don't get how someone is cheated of life at 5. 

I know there are a thousand different ways that people tell each other to look at death... don't look at it as loss, look at it as a beautiful life you got to experience... or how their time was a gift.. and we were lucky... 

My response to that, is that a greater gift would have been survival. A Greater Gift would have been the poofy crazy hair, the smiles, the hugs and love for his family and friends. A greater gift would have been to live. 

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